I am still here, but on many days I’m not really sure why. I don’t really look forward to the future, and any time I think about how it might be without my wife I want to end it. I was so alone before I was with my wife, and I don’t want to be… Continue reading Why am I Still Here?
I don’t think my brain has quite come to terms with the fact that my wife is gone, and will never return. It’s like my brain is stuck. I will be walking up to the house and know that my wife won’t be there, but my brain interjects that she might be. Or that maybe… Continue reading Some Days are Better than Others
For so long I lived for her. I got up in the morning because I needed to generate an income, provide a house, bring home the bacon, and protect her from the things I needed to. And I wanted to do all these things for her. I was in the best time of my life,… Continue reading What Will I Live For Now?
I met my wife late in life, but I think that was better for the both of us. We new what we were lacking, and were fortunate to find that in each other. We were best friends, and closer than I could have ever been with anybody else. And that’s making life difficult now. I’m… Continue reading Despair is the Daily Adversary
My wife was my best friend. I hope she knew it. I think we discussed that I felt I could tell her things that I’d never share with my best friend and that my best friend was was really just my best friend that wasn’t her, but I don’t think I ever told her that… Continue reading My Best Friend Died
Cancer/Carcinoma of Unknown Primary is when the doctors know you have cancer, but don’t know where it started. My wife Karen was diagnosed with Cancer and the doctors ran a few inconclusive tests to try to determine where it started. After a biopsy didn’t indicate a conclusive source they advised that it didn’t really matter,… Continue reading Cancer of Unknown Primary
I decided to spend our savings when my wife was diagnosed with cancer. Her diagnosis was terminal, and most diagnosed with her type of cancer don’t survive more than a few years.
My wife died a little over six months ago and I’m having troubles navigating my way through life without her. I don’t feel comfortable sharing most of what I feel with even my closest friends, so I created this site to help myself. Perhaps it will help others as well.